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alone [Nov. 12th, 2007|05:21 am]
Lillian
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In the middle of the night is always the most lonely time. I was dreaming about my grandmother's dead corpse having to be removed from the house. And when I looked at the clock, it was 4:44. I admit, if I had at been home with mommy and daddy, I would have woken them up because that scared the absolute crap out of me, but I'm not.
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Survey cuz I don't want to sleep [May. 18th, 2006|02:18 am]
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Stuck at home [May. 18th, 2006|01:14 am]
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[mood |annoyedannoyed]

Since I've been at home, I've talked to my dad and my brother quite a bit... not so much my mom. I saw Peter on Thursday and Saturday, but now I'm just stuck at home. My mom was driving my dad's car until she got a flat, didn't realize it, and drove it until she bent up the steel wheel. So, 2 cars down, 2 left that the 4 of us are using. My mom has to keep going to work, so she gets 1, and the rest of us are sharing the last one. So, I'm basically stuck at home.

I guess it's not soo bad. I'm working on cleaning my room. I've pretty much finished a new layout for the AOE site. (it's awesome!) At least I've unloaded my car now. I was meaning to go shopping and whatnot this week, but whatever. I was also planning on going to Ocean City this weekend with Peter... but now that I don't have a car, we can't exactly go... I guess we're just gonna do something else.

This wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't so annoyed by stupid people and hearing people repeat things over and over again. I can't stand that my mom won't take blame for the cars when it was her own stupidity that lead to it. Don't make a freakin U-turn when cars are coming and don't drive on a flat tire! I don't know how you managed to miss the fact that the tire was FLAT!? And then my dad... I swear I've already heard everything he has to say a zillion times by now! And it's all the same old depressing crap that he's been spilling for a whole freaking week! And practically my whole life! ARGH!

*sigh* I just need to complain sometimes.
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End of the 5th Semester... [May. 12th, 2006|10:07 pm]
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[mood |melancholymelancholy]

I came home yesterday. It was a rough semester, in terms of how hard it was. My dad has been here since I left for spring break. He is down on his luck, again. I keeps complaining about how his life has been so unlucky. He told me about his friend who lost his restaurant this week. He told me about his sister; her cancer has reoccurred. It was depressing. I went to take a nap, but wasn't before long before we got a call to get my mom from the hospital. She was ok, but she was involved in a car accident. She was hit on the driver's side. They had to rip the door off to get her out of the car. My dad went to see the car today, and he said the entire driver's side was smashed in about a foot. If it had been anything bigger than a sedan that had hit her... I would definitely be crying now. The only saving grace for yesterday was my grades. Those turned out better than expected, but with everything else going on, do I even care?
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I miss freshman year... [Apr. 16th, 2006|08:37 pm]
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[mood |nostalgicnostalgic]

It's the homework getting to me, but I really miss freshman year. I miss being able to actually finish my homework in one sitting. I miss having leisurely afternoons where we could just sit around the pod. I miss having lots of people to talk to all the time, just a door or two away. I miss walking around campus in a big group on Saturday night watching the archietects in Cowgill. I miss going to wake Sam up from an afternoon nap. I miss practicing TKD in the TV lounge with everyone else. I miss tossing the frisbee around with Lauren at midnight. I miss Tuesday night frisbee. I miss taping body outlines of Sam and me in the pods. I miss listening to Sam play her guitar. I miss hiding in Max and Michelle's room when Lauren got on my nerves. I miss doing laundry with Lauren at 4AM on Sunday. I miss rearranging our room. I miss our trips to Walmart. I miss the car rides home with Sam. I miss the MacGyver boxes (not the EF ones). I miss watching random movies in Max and Michelle's room. I miss bouncing the huge ball with Robin. I miss the random conversations I would have. I miss having to help people with Matlab (amazingly). I miss trying to console Ashley when programming was tough (I've only seen her 2 times or something this semester). I miss the gossip. I miss having the free time to rollerblade around campus on a nice afternoon. I miss going to Gillies on Sunday morning. I miss the card games in the pods. I miss waiting for the drunks to come back. I miss doing homework in the Fish Tank. I miss the birthday celebrations. I even miss being irritated with Lauren. I miss the atmosphere in first year Hypatia. I miss what made Virginia Tech feel like home.
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More about my birthday... [Apr. 5th, 2006|11:30 pm]
Lillian
So Friday, I went to get Peter from Clifton Forge, VA (also known as in the middle on no where off 64 West). His train was about 2 hours late. We ate at Olive Garden that night and got back to Tech at 11pm. Since I was doing the Big Event in the morning, we went to bed early. After the Big Event on Saturday morning, we went to get some free food at a cookout, went to the Greek Empo, and I took nap cuz I was so tired. Peter said that he wanted to see me drinking, so we decided that we would mix something later that night. So I got some vodka from the store (which was really weird for me cuz I had no idea what I was doing), and we went to Kabuki for dinner (yum!). We got some juice from walmart, and I had to borrow a shot glass from someone... wow I'm such a dork, I don't actually own a shot glass. And that reminds me, I need to return it. Anyway, I had about 1.5 drinks, and at that point, I was just laughing a heck of a lot. Apparently, I make even more weird faces than I normally do if I've been drinking. I think Peter, Katie, and Cameron (the only sober one) found me to be amusing. Somewhere in there, I lost that hour from daylight savings... wow time sure does fly if you've been drinking, not. Went to bed late, got up to eat breakfast, throw the frisbee a little, and drove Peter to Roanoke so he could catch his bus. But after I left him, he called me back an hour later saying that he didn't get on the bus and was waiting for the 9pm one. I felt really bad for leaving him there, but logically speaking, I didn't have any more time to waste anyway. The last few days have been crazy as hell cuz of the work I had to do... so thats why no update until now. And I'll be headed off to bed early tonight, for once.
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21st Birthday [Mar. 31st, 2006|07:46 am]
Lillian
I feel like I needed to make up for my depressing entry from last year. So the 21st one... it wasn't as crummy as I thought it would be. It was actually fun. I got up at 9 and did laundry. Lauren and Cameron came by for lunch, and we met up with Max and Robin. That was nice since Lauren, Max and Robin couldn't come to dinner (stupid tests). I walked around campus with Cameron taking pictures for the E-week scavenger hunt. I talked to my mom on the phone and took some more pictures. For dinner, I went to India Garden with a bunch of people, Dylan (who turned 22), Cameron, Sam, Michelle, Frank, Erin, Katie, and 3 of Dylan's friends (Kyle, Rina and Karishma). As for drinking on the 21st birthday, I did drink most of the Desert Sunrise that Frank bought for me. That was it though. I went to TKD... that's more than I can say for most people on their 21st birthday.
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Short Update (hopefully) [Mar. 16th, 2006|12:29 pm]
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[mood |ecstaticecstatic]

I'm procrastinating some more... isn't that new? Well, here's how my tests went: stat and fields good, comms ok, and I hate circuits. That last fact is also not new. I sucked at it in 2004, and now I suck at it in 3004.

I really need to start doing real work this week. I've been preoccupied all week thinking about clue week! Who knew that it could be so much fun? Plus, I got my first choice little. That surprises me, but it keeps me very excited. The trouble about it though is that I find myself thinking about what I should do during class, when I'm eating, before I go to sleep, and even the first thing when I wake up in the morning! Sure, it's fun, but damn, I'm gonna mess myself up badly if I keep doing this. haha! Plus, I'm still working on my idea for tomorrow... I don't know yet, but I want to be really fun.

On another note, its been nice this week to actually see people! I'm really not a hermit, I swear! People just seem to drop off the face of the earth when they move off campus. And then there's that whole fact that I don't drink... what am I supposed to do now? Maybe I haven't been trying hard enough to make new friends? I think the non-drinkers are few and far in between though. Whatever.
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studying sucks... [Feb. 28th, 2006|06:50 pm]
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[mood |lazylazy]

Somebody should remind me why I want to be an electrical engineer! Oh I remember... cuz I'm an indecisive person who can't make up my own damn mind.
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Why do girls get pissed off over stupid stuff? [Jan. 11th, 2006|10:02 pm]
Lillian
Well, here's a good time to write in the LJ, when I'm freaking annoyed and pissed off. I don't want to clean, and I don't want to pack. But most of all, I'm just annoyed that peace of mind costs $50 and it sure as hell doesn't make me feel any better. Mostly cuz I didn't need it and someone else did and now I'm sitting here bored shitless thank you very much.
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